The Heartbeat Drummer!

I wake up but my mind's still racing, Like a car on a track, it's just chasing. A checklist of fears, a mile long. Worrying what went right and what went wrong. My stomach feels tight, my shoulders are stone, Wish I could just leave all my thoughts alone. I'm so tired, but I can't find a rest, It's just me and this uninvited guest. Oh, the Heartbeat Drummer 🥁, he's pounding a b**t! Tells me I'm in danger on a normal street. I'm running a marathon in my own head, Over-thinking everything that was said. This feeling is fake, but it feels so true, Wish I knew the magic trick to just let go of you! Yeah, it's a messy, funny, difficult thing... But I'm still trying to stand up and sing. I nod and smile, but I don't hear a word, Just a buzzing noise, like a trapped little bird. My friends call me out, but I hit decline. A crowd is a courtroom, and I'll have to resign. I snap at my family, I don't mean to be mean, This anxious feeling makes me feel irritable and keen. I just want to hide in my room, where the silence is safe, A fortress of quiet is what I'm seeking to crave. Oh, the Heartbeat Drummer 🥁, he's pounding a b**t! Tells me I'm in danger on a normal street. I'm running a marathon in my own head, Over-thinking everything that was said. This feeling is fake, but feels so true, Wish I knew the magic trick to just let go of you! Yeah, it's a messy, funny, difficult thing... But I'm still trying to stand up and sing. I know it's a f***t I can't win in a day, I feel guilty for struggling and pushing people away. But a wave can't last forever, it has to come down. I'm learning to breathe, even when I think I might d***n. And even if I tremble and sweat in the store, It doesn't make me worthless anymore. Oh, the Heartbeat Drummer, he’s slowing his b**t! I’m walking that normal, every-day street. I’m running a marathon, but I can slow down, I’ll stop over-thinking and turn my head 'round! This feeling is a part of me, but it doesn’t control me, I'm stronger than I was, I'm making it my goal! It's a messy, funny, difficult thing, But I’m standing up tall and I’m ready to sing! I'm making it my goal! It's a messy, funny, difficult thing, But I’m standing up tall and I’m ready to sing! I'm standing up tall and I'm ready to sing Just keep breathing.