I Can’t Believe It

Verse 1 I can’t believe it. I promised I would. But I didn’t know I’d have to give it back at the end of the road. Should’ve given more thought, maybe taken control. Where do you go when the world says you’re hopeless and cold? If I’m headed for hell—hell, I’ll ready the boat. We can roll out any moment, all I need is some rope. Don’t leave a note, no one’s gonna read it—they won’t. It’s been a joke, half my life spent hangin’ with my folks. Got no friends; in the end they just pretend. Would they lend a hand? Well… that depends. If it helps ’em, yeah, probably then. But when it’s all said and done, we don’t talk again. Chorus 1 I can’t do much, I’m livin’ in a rush. Ain’t nobody left I feel I can trust. Seven years down, Lord knows it’s been rough. Sittin’ alone, wonderin’ if love’s enough. Verse 2 I remember that bus, you said you loved me. Said you didn’t care I ain’t have money. I laughed it off but it cut through me— My pride’s the only thing still true to me. Touch it wrong, I start losin’ me. So when I’m gone and it’s time to go, Hope there’s cash in the safe, somethin’ small for you to blow. All these moments flyin’ by, any breath I could die, Just lean back, stop askin’ why. Everybody got me standin’ on nerves that burn. It hurts—keeps gettin’ worse till I’m ridin’ in a hearse. I feel cursed, but the thirst still works— Early bird chasin’ worms through dirt. Chorus 2 Never feels like it’s my family’s time to shine. Want them to win before I go get mine. I wasn’t thinkin’ clear back then, Just hopin’ someone might hear me again. But they didn’t—and they won’t. Life don’t joke, death don’t postpone. Verse 3 If my dad was alive, he’d say the same: “Don’t let the pain own my name.” He’d want me to speak it proud, not ashamed. Now I’m twenty-four, half my life gone. Kinda shocked I made it this long. Everything wrong still goin’ on, All I ever wanted was to give back to Mom. Clock keep tickin’, time runs out, Gotta move now, can’t d***n in doubt. Final Chorus / Outro Can’t do much—livin’ in a rush, Mama still hurtin’, that’s enough. Wish I could buy her that house on a lot, But daydreams fade and the bills don’t stop. Still I swear I’m destined for the top. Yeah… I’m destined for the top. (fade: soft guitar, one long exhale)