Still Here Somehow

Well I wake up before the sun, coffee cup and a loaded g*n Check the mirror just to see what kind of man I’ve become Lines on my face like a worn-out map Each one a promise I couldn’t get back Phone keeps ringin’, bills won’t wait But the bank account's got nothin' but fate I bust my a*s ‘til I can’t breathe But I'm broke as hell with mouths to feed I’m tired, Lord, I’m beaten down Like a dog that's been kicked around this town I talk to You when no one’s near But the silence is all I hear I’ve thought about just checkin’ out But I’d probably just screw that up somehow Still here, still breathin’ But I don’t know the reason No, I don’t know the reason Used to dream about somethin’ more Now I just lock the damn shop door Rust on the tools, rent past due I’m drownin’ slow in red and blue My wife says it’s gonna be alright But I can see the truth in her eyes at night Kids still laugh like they don't know Daddy's losin’ pieces of his soul I’m tired, Lord, I’m runnin’ blind Just a man stuck in overtime I pray to You like a desperate fool But I ain’t felt nothin’ true I’ve thought about just slippin’ out But that ain’t what a man’s about So I keep on fakin’ Though I’m breakin’ God, I’m barely hangin’ on Maybe there's a reason in this pain Some grace behind the strain But if You’re listenin’, I could use a sign ‘Cause I’m down here runnin’ out of time I’m tired, Lord, and that’s no lie But I ain’t ready yet to say goodbye Still got a name, still got a vow Still got this cross I’m draggin’ now I’ve thought about just lettin’ go But something in me still says “no” So I rise, and I try One more damn day at a time Yeah I rise, and I try Still here, Lord, still alive