I couldn't safe him

Yeah It’s like He gave me life but lost his own And now I carry the weight of both our souls I miss you bro… He saved me, but I couldn’t save him Woke up cryin’, feelin’ caged in He took a shot, now I’m drownin’ in pain Tried to follow, but the g*n jammed again I broke down when I heard the news Down on my knees like what could I do He saved my life, gave me another chance But I still see his face in every glance I had a rope in my hand and a letter in my head Ceiling fan creakin’, I just wanted to be d**d Felt like the world never cared what I said But my brother busted in, pulled me back instead Tears in his eyes, shoutin' “Don’t go!” He held me close like he couldn’t let go Threw me in the car, drove fast in the night Told me I’d be fine, just gotta f***t Hospital lights, they patched me up Told me therapy would help fill my cup But I was still empty, couldn’t feel love Even though he gave me what I was dreamin' of He saved me, but I couldn’t save him Woke up cryin’, feelin’ caged in He took a shot, now I’m drownin’ in pain Tried to follow, but the g*n jammed again I broke down when I heard the news Down on my knees like what could I do He saved my life, gave me another chance But I still see his face in every glance We hit the club that night, just me and my twin Smilin’ wide, like we ain’t got nothin’ within But she was cheatin’ while he trusted her lies Next morning he was gone, not even goodbye In his parents’ house, in the room downstairs He pulled the trigger while no one was there I ran to see him, but I fell in the street Screamin’ to the sky, broke down in defeat Then I tried to OD, took pills in the dark Woke up in pain, still missin’ his heart Tried the rope again, then I grabbed his piece Put it to my head just to find some peace But all I heard was that cold metal click Like God said, “Nah, you ain't done with this” Now I carry grief like a scar on my skin He saved me once, but I couldn’t save him She moved on, never shed a tear But I see his ghost when I look in the mirror Wish I could swap, wish I could switch Trade places with the one that I miss He saved me, but I couldn’t save him Woke up cryin’, feelin’ caged in He took a shot, now I’m drownin’ in pain Tried to follow, but the g*n jammed again I broke down when I heard the news Down on my knees like what could I do He saved my life, gave me another chance But I still see his face in every glance You saved me, and I wish I saved you too This life’s a prison when I think of you Every day I breathe feels borrowed and blue So I rap these words, just to talk to you Just to talk to you...