Bottle it up

I was born in a world already broken, Mama never smiled, daddy always smokin' Grew up in a house with no love spoken, Silence louder than the glass I keep on holdin’ Tears dry fast in a world full of masks, Every “you okay?” feel like a stupid-a*s task I was ten when I learned to lie with my smile, Now I bleed just to feel something real for a while Nobody talks, so we bottle the pain Cut deep just to quiet the rain Smoke clouds just to numb the flame Every hit, every sip, just to feel sane Life gets worse with every new face Kids lost in a dopamine chase No love, just a digital place Where the likes don’t heal and the hearts just break I seen friends fall with a rope or a blade, In a tub full of red or a car c***h they made This ain't pain you can post on a feed, It’s the kind that screams in the silence you breathe Society’s sick, it's a loop of decay, Raised on trauma and thrown away Men told not to cry, "Man up or die" So we load up the pills and say goodbye Tryna talk, but I c***e on my voice Fists fly quicker than making a choice Vape in my lungs and the smoke in my soul Cold heart, but the scars still glow I’ve been numb since the age of thirteen Since I found out what “worthless” means Now it’s fights at night and drinks till dawn Another broken kid just tryna hold on Nobody talks, so we bottle the pain Cut deep just to quiet the rain Smoke clouds just to numb the flame Every hit, every sip, just to feel sane Life gets worse with every new face Kids lost in a dopamine chase No love, just a digital place Where the likes don’t heal and the hearts just break Now I’m lookin' in the mirror, who is this face? Baggy eyes, cracked lips, lost in space Every text I send is a silent scream Every laugh I fake is a shattered dream Drugs don’t help but they make it fade, Til I’m stuck in a loop I wish I could trade This life feels like a rigged roulette, Where the chamber’s loaded and I place my bet I ain’t asking for a hand or a prayer, Just for someone to see that I’m there We’re all dying inside, slow or fast In a world that forgets you like yesterday’s past If I’m gone, let my words stay alive, For the next soul lost just tryna survive ‘Cause maybe they’ll hear it and take one breath Instead of choosing that permanent rest