EMPTY INSIDE

I wake up feeling nothing, like another day I’m just surviving, Staring at the ceiling wondering why my heart stopped trying. Everything I used to love don’t hit the same no more, All the colors in my world faded right into the floor. I walk through rooms like I’m not even there, Breathing slow, but the air feels thin and bare. People talk, but their voices don’t reach me, I’m drowning in a silence they can’t see. I keep searching for a spark in this darkness, Something to remind me I’m more than just heartless. But this heavy empty feeling lives under my skin, And no matter where I go, it follows me in. I used to dream with my eyes wide open, Now I’m just awake, but broken. Nothing moves me, nothing lifts me, I’m a ghost in my own body drifting. I pray for something real enough to shake me, Something strong enough to finally wake me. I’m tired of pretending I’m fine inside, When I’m hollow like a well that’s dried. Every laugh feels borrowed, every smile feels fake, A quiet pain behind everything I take. People say “it gets better,” but I don’t see the climb, I’m stuck in a loop with a heart out of time. I keep wishing for a moment that’ll make me feel alive again, A heartbeat louder than the hurt I’m in. But nothing changes, nothing touches the numb, And the louder I scream inside, the more I come undone. I don’t want this emptiness as part of my name, Don’t wanna live without fire in my veins. But the world feels distant, the light feels cold, And I’m too young to feel this old. I walk through the night hoping for a sign, A flash of meaning, a pulse that’s mine. Some days I wonder if I’m fading slow, If I’m losing pieces no one will know. But a voice inside whispers, “Hold on, stay,” Even broken hearts find their way. Maybe someday something will spark again, Maybe one breath will pull me from this pain. Until then I’m here in the quiet I f***t, Trying to remember what it feels like to feel alive. And if tomorrow still feels the same, I’ll keep searching through the numb and the shame. ‘Cause even when the world stops shining bright, Somewhere inside me still wants the light. I’m not okay… but I’m still here to try. Even empty… I’m still alive.