Last night I got hammered again.
How do I explain I lost my mind, I lost my fire again?
Orphan and lost on how to love,
how to handle the loneliness.
Can't commit, can't admit
I'm on the edge of craziness.
My friends, they love me but
don't know who I really am.
They don't know what to do,
how to react, how to reel me in.
I look at the sky and beg for
a spot to feel invincible.
For all the times I fell and begged
and often felt invisible.
Orphan in life but not in feelings.
Staring at the skies, at the highs and muddy ceilings.
Hoping for a life, a mind and a heart that's painless.
Hoping I don't die way before I know what love is.
