Freaking Hell (Who Am I?)

[Verse 1] It’s a freaking hell, I’m stuck in the fire They don’t give a damn, they just walk by My feelings fade, they never stay Heart in pieces — I remained [Pre-Chorus] I tried too hard to fit their mold But every mirror says I’ve grown cold I thought I wasn’t good enough But maybe they were never love [Chorus] It’s a freaking hell, but I’m breaking free I don’t need your love to believe in me Yes, I want to change — but not for you Just to find the spark I once knew Did I lose myself in all this mess? Who am I now — why all this stress? It’s a freaking hell, but I’ll find my light ‘Cause I deserve to breathe, to f***t, to rise [Verse 2] They smile while you quietly bleed They’re gone the moment you’re in need I gave too much, forgot my name Now every scar will stake my claim [Pre-Chorus] The truth is sharp, but so is growth No more lies dressed up in hope No more shrinking just to please I’ll stand as me — and live in peace [Chorus] It’s a freaking hell, but I’m breaking free I don’t need your love to believe in me Yes, I want to change — but not for you Just to find the spark I once knew Did I lose myself in all this mess? Who am I now — why all this stress? It’s a freaking hell, but I’ll find my light ‘Cause I deserve to breathe, to f***t, to rise [Bridge] Maybe pain is where I grow Through every crack, the light will show No more chains, no more pretend This is not how my story ends [Final Chorus] It’s a freaking hell — but I’m standing tall Rising stronger after every fall I want to change — not to be new But to love myself, raw and true I’m not lost — I’m just alive Every wound of mine — proof I survived It’s a freaking hell, but I’m finding me And that’s the start of being free