So I Don't Write That Message

(Verse 1) I said “I’m fine” and changed the subject Laughed too hard so they wouldn’t suspect Skipped the part where I didn’t sleep Where I laid awake and didn’t weep (Pre-Chorus) I check my phone, but not too much It’s easier to feel nothing than to feel too much (Chorus) I write songs so I don’t write that message Turn the ache into rhyme, make it feel less aggressive I’m not sad, I’m just… not anything Just noise in a body pretending to sing I write songs so I don’t say “come back” Hide the truth in a verse, leave the chorus intact I’m not broken — I’m just bending Singing like that stops the ending (Verse 2) I smile at strangers just to feel seen Scroll past your name like it’s not a big thing I hum a line instead of your name Pretend I don’t miss what I never could claim (Pre-Chorus) I let the silence fill up the space Then write it down like it’s just a phrase (Chorus) I write songs so I don’t write that message Keep the pain in a chord — something safe, something precious I’m not sad, I’m just… not here Drifting through days like the sky’s not clear I write songs so I don’t say “come back” Let the echo ring out where the words should be at I’m not broken — I’m just hiding This melody’s the only thing I’m finding (Bridge) Maybe tomorrow I’ll call it healing Tonight it’s just a trick for feeling I’ll rhyme a little truth with fiction Make loneliness feel like a decision (Final Chorus – stripped down) I write songs so I don’t write that message Fold the need into lines I can manage I’m not sad, I’m just… unfinished Half a heart in a song I never meant to finish