Inside my head

Verse 1) I wake up with a w*r behind my eyes Fake a smile, wear the same disguise You hold me like I’m whole, like I’m not breakin’ But baby, I’m a storm you don’t see comin’ I got ghosts that scream when it’s quiet Thoughts like knives, and I can’t f***t it You’re light in the dark, and I’m the reason That I feel like I don’t deserve your breathin’ (Chorus) I’m so fucked up in the head, can’t lie Try to run, but I’m stuck inside You say love, but I hear goodbye Every time you look me in the eye I wish I could be better instead But I’m drowning in the mess I never said You hold my heart like it ain’t d**d Even though I’m so fucked up in the head (Verse 2) You see skin, I see every scar You see me, I see who I aren’t I overthink, I shut you out Then break down when you start to doubt I’m sorry for the nights I shut down For all the times I let us both d***n But you love me like there’s still a way To fix a soul that’s gone halfway (Chorus) I’m so fucked up in the head, can’t lie Try to run, but I’m stuck inside You say love, but I hear goodbye Every time you look me in the eye I wish I could be better instead But I’m drowning in the mess I never said You hold my heart like it ain’t d**d Even though I’m so fucked up in the head (Bridge) If you ever leave, I’ll get it Wouldn’t blame you for a minute But if you stay, just know the truth I’m trying, every day, for you (Final Chorus) I’m so fucked up in the head, that’s real But you make me want to start to heal You say love, and I start to feel That maybe one day I won’t have to kneel I wish I could be better instead But you see the soul beneath the dread You hold me close when I’m seeing red Even though I’m so fucked up in the head