I'm Still Healing

Gentleman Road (Redemption Version) (A Country Ballad of Healing) [Verse 1] She said it’s over, she’s done with the f***t, I told her if she walks, I’ll find my own light. I met someone new, just a smile and a spark, And that’s when the healing began in the dark. [Verse 2] We shared a coffee, talked under the sun, But trouble came knockin’ before day was done. My son called in fear, said, “Dad, don’t come near,” She had a gas g*n, and her mind wasn’t clear. [Verse 3] I begged for two hours, just a little rest, Had to leave for Pinetown, give work my best. Came back to a home stripped bare and cold, But I held my ground, didn’t let my soul fold. [Chorus] I’ve been hurt, I’ve been lost, I’ve been pushed to the edge, But I’m climbin’ back slowly, step by step off the ledge. I gave my heart, I made mistakes, but I’m learnin’ as I go, I walk the road of mercy — down that gentleman road. [Verse 4] She left me with one plate, one spoon, one sheet, No food in the cupboard, no shoes on my feet. But I found strength in the silence, peace in the pain, Started rebuildin’ my life again. [Verse 5] I gave her money, said, “Go clear your name,” But she used it for lawyers and played a cruel game. Still I stood tall, didn’t let hate win, I chose to forgive, let the healing begin. [Verse 6] After Pinetown, the house smelled wrong, Three d**d fish behind my bed all along. Then a fly led me to a closet of dread, A pig’s head rotted where I used to rest my head. [Verse 7] I was clean in my soul, walkin’ proud and free, Her cousin came by, had a braai with me. He acted strange, but I gave him a bed, Next day she accused me — my heart filled with dread. [Verse 8] I asked her to test me, to prove I was true, But the results came back like a storm that blew. She kept that test, my name and the date, I relapsed in sorrow, overwhelmed by fate. [Verse 9] Still I gave her a third of what my father left me, Used the rest to fix the floors and set my spirit free. I’m not perfect, but I’m tryin’ to mend, Turnin’ my story toward love in the end. [Final Chorus] I’ve been hurt, I’ve been lost, I’ve been pushed to the edge, But I’m climbin’ back slowly, step by step off the ledge. I gave my heart, I made mistakes, but I’m learnin’ as I go, I walk the road of mercy — down that gentleman road