Promises I Can’t Keep

(Verse 1)
These past weeks have been rough & it feels like I can't breathe Thought I could be tough But bein’ responsible ain’t easy I talk big when I’m low Say I’ll change, then I don’t Keep repeatin’ my show But I swear I never meant to let go (Bridge to Chorus) Over & over again, I hurt them Say I'm better, but then I desert them When will I finally feel like I'm not drownin’? When will the silence stop shoutin’? (Chorus) All, these, years, you took care of me Held me down through the worst of me Now I’m the one who’s causin’ the pain Sayin' sorry, then doin’ the same Why can’t I just be who you need? Why do I make it so hard to believe? I’m pushin’ you farther away Every promise I make feels fake (Verse 2 — more rap-style) I ghost the truth, then haunt myself Blame the past, but I built this hell You gave your all, I gave excuses Told you I’d win, but I’m sick of losin’ I act like I got time to spare But your patience wears thin, I swear You look at me with quiet pain Wonderin’ if I’ll ever really change (Bridge 2) Over & over again, I bend you With words I never intend to This house don’t feel like home no more Too many apologies left at the door (Chorus — full repeat) All, these, years, you took care of me Held me down through the worst of me Now I’m the one who’s causin’ the pain Sayin' sorry, then doin’ the same Why can’t I just be who you need? Why do I make it so hard to believe? I’m pushin’ you farther away Every promise I make feels fake (Outro — soft indie delivery) And I love you more than I can show But love without action just feels hollow I wanna change, but I don’t know how I’ll keep tryin’… just not right now