Torn at Twenty Three

[Verse 1] Woke up again with a head full of storms Chaos in my chest where my heart should be warm Spinning through moods like a carousel ride Can’t trust myself, and I can’t seem to hide [Pre-Chorus] Every mirror shows a stranger’s face I’m chasing calm but stuck in place [Chorus] I'm torn at twenty-three Can’t find the pieces left of me BPD, ADD, and these memories CPTSD won't set me free How do I live when I don’t know who to be? [Verse 2] Start a fire then d***n in the smoke Make a plan, then forget what I wrote Smiles are masks I forget how to wear I scream in silence, but nobody cares [Bridge] Flickers of hope, but they fade so fast Lost in the noise of a haunted past Trying to breathe in a world so loud I shrink inside, don’t want to be found [Chorus] I'm torn at twenty-three Can’t find the pieces left of me BPD, ADD, and these memories CPTSD won't set me free How do I live when I don’t know who to be? [Outro] [Refrain] I’m still here—just trying to be Even if I don’t feel complete in me [End]