[Intro]
*(Haunted synth melody fades in, distorted bass thumps)*
Yeah... f**k this pain
999 forever, man...
[Verse 1]
Woke up again with this weight on my chest, yeah
Poppin' these percs just to fail the damn test, shit
Demons they whisper, "Just give it a rest," yeah
But I grab the lean cup, put my soul to arrest
Head in a blender, my thoughts are a mess, f**k
Chasin' that high 'cause the lows got me stressed, shit
Promises broken, my heart's in the vest, locked
Another day wasted, put God to the test, damn
These pills ain't the answer, I know it too well
But sober me's haunted by my personal hell, f**k
Lost in the static, no story to tell
Just me and this bottle, trapped in this cell
[Chorus]
(Yeah) I'm sippin' the pain, mixin' codeine with doubt
Feel my heart slowin' down, tryna black the whole world out, f**k
Yeah, I'm drownin' in sound, scream but nobody hears
Got these chemical tears, washin' away all my fears, shit
This life's a curse, yeah, I'm stuck in the cycle
Burnin' my wings just to feel like an idol, damn
[Verse 2]
Look in the mirror, don't know who I see
Stranger with d**d eyes starin' back at me, f**k
Used to have visions, now it's all fuckin' hazy
Chasin' the ghost of a girl who went crazy, shit
Trust is a bullet shot straight through my hand
Left me bleedin' out, lost in this wasteland, damn
These drugs ain't the fix, just a temporary crutch
But without 'em, I'm nothin', I don't feel shit too much, f**k
Paranoia creepin', the walls start to breathe
Another damn panic attack, gotta leave
This world is too heavy, can't carry the load
Just gimme the juice 'til my fuckin' brain explodes
[Chorus]
(Yeah) I'm sippin' the pain, mixin' codeine with doubt
Feel my heart slowin' down, tryna black the whole world out, f**k
Yeah, I'm drownin' in sound, scream but nobody hears
Got these chemical tears, washin' away all my fears, shit
This life's a curse, yeah, I'm stuck in the cycle
Burnin' my wings just to feel like an idol, damn
[Bridge]
(B**t strips back, melancholic piano chords)
Is anybody out there? Or am I talkin' to space?
Filled up with emptiness, can't find my place, f**k
Tried findin' heaven, but I took the wrong route
Now all that's left in me is this fuckin' blackout, shit
Wish I could rewind, erase all the sin
But I'm stuck in the loop, let the darkness back in, damn...
[Chorus]
(B**t drops back in heavily)
I'm sippin' the pain, mixin' codeine with doubt
Feel my heart slowin' down, tryna black the whole world out, f**k
Yeah, I'm drownin' in sound, scream but nobody hears
Got these chemical tears, washin' away all my fears, shit
This life's a curse, yeah, I'm stuck in the cycle
Burnin' my wings just to feel like an idol, damn
[Outro]
*(Vocal ad-libs fade under the main melody, synth becomes more distorted and warped)*
999... forever...
Yeah... f**k it all...
Just let me fade...
(B**t and vocals slowly dissolve into static and silence)
