What Was I Thinking

[Intro] [Verse 1] Wake up in the morning, I hear that breakfast sound, It’s not the sizzle of bacon, but snap, crackle, pop’s all around. Sounds of the old rockin’ chair of my grand-dad’s, Comin’ from my knees, “Eee-Gads.” What the hell was that? I thought I just heard my dad, My body’s hurtin’ bad, gettin’ old is sad. [Chorus] They said everything is better when you’re older, They never told me that I’ll always feel colder. “I can’t wait to grow up,” echoed in my mind, Now I’m countin’ every ache, losin’ track of time. What the hell was I thinkin’ back then? Chasin’ adulthood like it’s some long-lost friend. [Verse 2] Mirror shows a stranger with lines ’round his eyes, Same grin as my father, but wrapped in disguise. Bills stack like Legos, but the fun’s all gone, Nostalgia’s a bitter pill I’m chewin’ on. My old bike’s rusted, but my knees creak more, Youth’s a locked-up door, I’m starin’ at the floor. [Chorus] They said everything is better when you’re older, They never told me that I’ll always feel colder. “I can’t wait to grow up,” whispered through the years, Now I’m drownin’ in the weight of unshed tears. What the hell was I thinkin’ back then? Tradin’ fireflies for deadlines again. [Bridge] My son says, “Dad, I can’t wait to be tall,” I bite my tongue before I let the truth fall. “Enjoy the ride,” I mutter, half a lie, Watchin’ his spark fade as time flies by. [Chorus] They said everything is better when you’re older, They never told me that I’ll always feel colder. “I can’t wait to grow up,” haunts me like a ghost, Now I’m payin’ for the years I wanted most. What the hell was I thinkin’ back then? Wish I could hug that kid and start again. [Outro]