Cosmos

[Lyrics] [Verse 1] Room goes quiet, I open my mouth, the words just pour out, rapid fire. Thought I was smart, thought I was clever, now I'm lookin' down at the wire. And the wire's snappin', the trap is springin', feel the sweat drippin' off my brow, Why did I say that? Why did I do that? Can't take it back, not now. Every syllable a nail in the coffin of common sense. Regret is a mansion, and I'm buildin' a new wing tonight, Staring at the ceiling, wishing I could disappear without a trace. [Chorus] 'Cause the words keep playin' over, a tape loop in my brain, The moment I thought too fast, the start of the mental rain. If I did this, if I did that, everything would be fine, But I messed it up, crossed the line, it’s a failure that’s mine. Yeah, my mind's a prison, and I just gave them the key, This rapid-fire thinking is the end of me. Just trapped in the sequence, the what-ifs on repeat, Wishing I could just rewind and delete. [Verse 2] They didn't get it, they were confused, I spoke too fast, lost the connection. Why do I do this? Self-sabotage in real time, it’s a skill, Wish I could have just breathed, taken a second to process, Instead of the verbal vomit that's causing all this distress. The silence after was the loudest sound I've ever heard, Now I'm stuck here, haunted by every single word. It's an NF style, yeah, the truth is just depressin', Every lapse in judgment is a life lesson. [Bridge] Maybe they forgot it, maybe they moved on, But my memory is a monster, keeps singing the same old song. I built this cell with my tongue, locked it with my regret, The consequences linger, the price I haven't paid yet. Lost the authenticity I claim to own, Because I’m scared to make another mistake known. Yeah, the anxiety is back, pacing the length of my soul. Gotta be perfect, gotta be measured, gotta be right this time, 'Cause one more slip-up, one more flawed line, I’m committing a crime. Against my own sanity, my reputation, my peace of mind, But it follows me, a shadow with a voice and a face, Telling me I'm worthless, putting me back in my place. 'Cause the words keep playin' over, a tape loop in my brain, The moment I thought too fast, the start of the mental rain. If I did this, if I did that, everything would be fine, But I messed it up, crossed the line, it’s a failure that’s mine. Yeah, my mind's a prison, and I just gave them the key, This rapid-fire thinking is the end of me. Just trapped in the sequence, the what-ifs on repeat, Wishing I could just rewind and delete. Can't rewind it. Can't delete it. Just stuck here.